I have a question to pose to those of you that suffer these things as well. The other day I had what felt like a night terror, only didn't really follow the normal patterns I see which I get. I had that terrible frightened feeling I always get, but instead of having a bad experience, it was actually good, kind of. There was this weird electric feeling, but instead of being scared, per se, I felt... protected, for lack of a better word. Instead of the big black void (explanation in next paragraph), everything around me seemed to be bright, like something was giving off bright white light. Then I felt like it swallowed me up, and just... wrapped me in something that just made me feel safe.
Normally when I get night terrors, I see this huge black void that seems blacker than black, and I always feel like it's going to just swallow me up. I can't move, and I can't scream, which is what I really want to do. I can barely breathe. I just have to suffer through it, and then I don't even want to try and go back to sleep.
But this last thing ,while terrifying, was also kind of nice. I suppose it was terrifying because I still had the inability to move or scream/speak, and was barely breathing... But overall, I'd take this thing over one of my normal night terrors any day. It didn't leave me feeling scared and frightened, and I went back to sleep just fine after waking up from it (not right away, but eventually).
I did some looking on the internet, albeit not a lot, and didn't really find anything out about experiences like that.
Is it just a less terrible night terror, or is it something else?
I tried to explain it to the girlfriend, but she mostly just laughed at it. I don't mind that so much, I guess, but it seemed important to me and she just shrugged it off as goofy.
Maybe she doesn't get exactly how terrifying these things are to me. Right now, when I'm awake, I know they aren't real. There's not really some Evil black void that is trying to suck me into itself. When I'm having them, I can't tell that, and it scares me to death. So I thought the best thing to do would be to get input from people that experience these things themselves, see if anyone has had this kind of experience.
I'm glad to have found a community where I can share this without feeling like I'm opening myself up for someone to make fun of me.